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(back around mid-july…)
my medication is my addiction
my addiction is my medicine:

fifty-two minute run!

let’s see what recovery is like & how i feel tomorrow-

…y el detalle de ‘la caridad’ i’ve done a couple of times before- moving a dead- sacrificed?-

animal off th road: first that kittycat, at night, still warm, by th municipal services area

in th old tortuguero army base- then that flattened- hedgehog? near pfarrkirchen in niederbayern- & now a

little mongoose cub near los tubos beach…

overtraining? my resting pulse doesn’t seem to say so- 48 bpm, +or- , this morn- but i was sleeplessly tired

until daybreak…coffee plus gotukola plus adrenalin plus green tea in my postrun ‘ultimate’ shake…? walk-

weights- crosstrain- swim-rest??

…at th wrong time, th moment my head hits th pillow I AM AWAKE
only to drag my self up to my feet to sleepwalk, again & yet again
one night or one year: absence is void of duration
fully in th moment i laugh nervously at pushing th padlocked gate
shoulder au bout de petit matin first time after th engine’s collapse?

bastille: at tonight’s banquet i was nourished by th sacrifice of many grapes, some fish
two snails & even a taste of my friend’s cow loin…
countless wheat berries, seeds, grain, kernels ground down
germ set aside or ignored as innapropiate dark clue to continuity of life…

Written by morituri

August 31st, 2002 at 8:46 am

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